Legitimate Thoughts

Have you ever had that sort of phase in your life where you feel unstoppable? Or sort of confident, confident to the point where you are genuinely happy with what you are, who you are, what you do?

My whole life, maybe excluding my childhood years, has been pretty much filled with insecurities. And I mean, in any way possible. It could be not being good enough as a student, as a daughter, as a friend. Anything. I am sure that everyone goes through this though, because we’re all growing, we’re all learning new things about ourselves as the days go by.

I would dress nice, to impress people. To gain some sort of recognition, and honestly? That recognition was the more horrible, negative kind. It sucked. I would speak differently, softer, more quiet. And what did that do? That just made people think I was a fake, unreal loser who sucks up. I would neglect my studies just to do what someone else wants to, or skip tuition to join a group call or something. Everything everyone said somehow made an impact on me, even the unimportant people. And for three years in secondary, sure I was me most of the time, but when I was me, I did not feel happy with myself. At all.

I truly think that sometimes, your surroundings change you. Who you talk to changes you. Where you spend your weekends changes you. Who you choose to hangout with, what you do in school, it all changes you, whether you realise or not. The big game changer is when you get into a relationship. That breaks your true self and transforms you into something you are not. That is the boss level of this changing game, in my opinion.

Why do I say so? You’re basically investing all your time on this one person, doing everything you can to help or satisfy this person, and slowly your needs are below his/hers. And hence, the unnoticeable behavioural change, the unnoticeable routine change, the unnoticeable group-of-friends change. And what happens after you break up with that person? Realisation.

When you are at your worst, your ultimate, all time low, you kind of rebuild yourself. You spend some quality time with you, after several months/years of investing towards another person. Not that you never wanted to, just that at that time, he/she was your first and only priority. You then realise loads of things. What you like. What you love. What you do when you cry and how you make the crying stop. The list is endless. And that is when the magic begins.

You become so comfortable in your own skin. You know yourself better than anyone does and that is the best knowledge you will ever obtain. You start dressing up. Not for impression. Not for attention. For you. Because you deserve to look good, to feel good, to go out there and tell the world that you are here to stay.

And that is what I am doing. Feeling happy with myself for getting those results for Second Assessment. Feeling happy with myself for looking presentable when I want to. Feeling happy with myself for getting a Merit for something that I once thought I would fail. Loving myself a lot more, more than I ever have. I don’t know, and won’t know why it is only coming now, but all this has finally lead me to confidence. Pure confidence.

Some people have it instantly. Some people don’t have it at all. For me, it took me awhile. But when you finally get confidence, you’re unstoppable. You feel amazing. You feel awesome. You feel beautiful. And what I’m trying to say? I’m not too sure. I just really, really feel great about myself now, so that’s that.

Love,
Qin Rou

The Little Things in Life

Hello, internet world! It’s been awhile since my last post. Mainly caused by homework, responsibilities and loads of sleeping. So! Things I’ve been investing my time on for the past two months or so. Let’s do this.

1. The 9GAG food category
This is probably the most stupidest investment ever but I have been on 9GAG so much I have not been able to stop. Blame the beautiful, beautiful food category, begging for my attention. The amount of content ranges from ‘how to make bacon appealing’ recipes to countries competing each other for the best pizza. Dude. It is heaven. Here are some pictures of the food I saved (Yes, saved) into my gallery. I need help.

Talent.

Help.

Have mercy.

Do yourself a favour – go there and change your life.

2. MIGUEL FUDGING ZARATE
His work is Jazz meets Hip Hop meets everything on point and magical. I’ve always seen 15 second videos (on Instagram) of his choreography but never the whole piece until recently, after YouTube unblocked a HUGE amount of videos on mobile which were not reachable a week or two ago. He has these snippets of him giving advice and pointers in every single video he puts out and it is so inspiring how a tiny vision can play out into a masterpiece. Miguel fudging Zarate. That is all. Here is proof that him and his students are like fierce fairies gracefully prancing into life.

3. Too many songs
You know it’s too many songs when you need to subtopic a topic with a description of each song because you feel like each song is worthy of a detailed opinion on what the writer thinks about it. Plus you narrowed it down to only three songs.

– Cool for the Summer by Demi Lovato

YOU GO DEMI

I have always liked everything, and I mean EVERYTHING Demi has put out, somehow. This song though has this ‘wow secrets wow sexual wow don’t tell your mother wow rebel’ vibe which actually for once, works. The intro and the verse and the EDM feel and the perfect timing and all works so well together, it might be my favourite Demi song, ever. I dig it so much I sang it at dinner just now, multiple times.

–Can’t Feel My Face by The Weeknd

Oh, the mystery behind his hair.

His voice already screams diversity. From the verse which sounds so progressive and you would think a sick, loud beat would drop? Think again. The chorus makes him sound like an uninterested middle aged man singing ‘I can’t feel my face when I’m with you’ while a funky beat in the background plays. Yet it works. Like life. Everything you think won’t work, works. Boom.

-Right Here, Right Now by Troy and Gabriella/Zac and Vanessa, take your pick

Das right.

Yes, it is High School Musical. Yes, I am fully aware that I’m turning 15 soon. Yes, I love this song. I recently listened to the soundtracks of High School Musicals 2 and 3, just because I needed some sort of jam to listen to while I did Moral. It then became sort of a habit – now there’s a playlist for it on my Spotify. As cheesy as the movies get, you have to admit that the lyrics for every song is so well written. This song in particular though, hit me in the feels for some reason. Maybe it’s because I never live in the moment, always further or before. This song teaches me otherwise.

4. Aly Raisman
I HAVE BEEN TELLING MY FRIENDS ABOUT HER SINCE I SAW A VIDEO OF HER ROUTINE AT THE 2012 LONDON OLYMPICS AND I HAVE NOT BEEN STOPPING SINCE. Other than her being very attractive, she puts in so much effort in what she does as a gymnast and it honestly inspires you somehow, to reach higher and go harder. She also participated in Dancing with the Stars alongside Mark Ballas and ended at fourth (I STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW, THAT SUPERSIZE FREESTYLE IS MY LIFE) which was such a blessing. I really do hope she makes it to Rio 2016! Pictures of Aly to make you love her too.

Splits straighter than my As will ever be.

Aly giving face. I love this girl.

Do you love her yet?

5. So You Think You Can Dance, Season 12
As a kid, I spent a majority of time watching So You Think You Can Dance. Being so in love with dancers and dancing, that show was such a thrill. My favourite couple will always and forever be Twitchington, which consists of the amazing two – Stephen ‘Twitch’ Boss and Kherington Payne. I have not been following any seasons until recently, when I stumbled upon a video, this video to be exact :

AND I SAW THE DANCE. I SAW PAULA ABDUL. I SAW JASON DERULO. AND I FREAKED. I then went ahead and researched about this change, because why would Nigel replace Adam Shankman (the king of positive exaggeration) and Mary Murphy (the hot tamale train gatekeeper)? And boy, it was a great decision. Have you seen the new lineup/concept? You will freak. Like how I did, for several hours.

My favourite dancers from each team would definitely be Hailee Payne (WHO SLAYED THAT HIPHOP ROUTINE THIS WEEK) from Team Stage and Megz Alfonso (ALSO SLAYED A HIPHOP ROUTINE) and JJ Rabone (DOING SO WELL IN JAZZ) from Team Street. It’s so obvious I’m rooting for Team Street. And now! Top favourite performances so far :

And that is all, considering the fact that it is now 1:30 in the morning in my household. My brother is awake finishing his Visual Arts folio. My aunt is on the Food Network. I on the other hand, will try to sleep off all my responsibilities, wake up, and face them all again. What fun. Thank you for reading!

Love,

Qin Rou

How To : Humbleness

Hi! My mid-year examinations are over! I finished 22 papers which will ultimately determine whether I get my SIM card back! The month of June for me basically consisted of a week of holidays, two weeks of examinations and another week of pure normality, which is rare since the past few months have been full of activities. Explains why I never actually understood how did June passed by so quickly.

Anyway, back to the topic. Humbleness. For starters, I am not the most humble person on Earth. Not even close. But then again humbleness plays such an important role in growing, learning and whatever you do everyday.

For instance, dance wise. Being in a room full of talented people, people who know what they are doing here and what they want. People who want to learn. People who are eager to share their knowledge. It is such an amazing feeling to be surrounded with such positivity and you yourself want to learn. They all learn and share by being humble. Being humble enough to tell you if you’re not doing the step right. Being humble enough to not laugh or negatively critique that dancer who wasn’t around to learn the first few eight counts.

Sadly, there are some people, and I mean in general, who do not understand the term ‘humbleness’. Instead of being nice to others, they laugh, or bring you down. They cause self confidence to turn to self loathing, which is the most pathetic thing ever. I’ve been in situations where someone walks in the dance studio and people literally start bad mouthing that certain someone like there is no tomorrow. Is the bad mouthing for a valid reason? No. It never is. Sometimes, when we all learn steps and someone messes up, they laugh and give them the ‘bitch I was better than you ever since birth’ stare. Not cool.

In other situations, these people will also not accept constructive criticism, which is something everyone will struggle with all the time. It is not something rare, as criticism in general affects you no matter what. It’s just the way you deal with it. Personally, I still do struggle with criticism, but only the negative kind, or the kind which seems bad. Mainly because I personally am not okay with cowards who say what they see and not what they know. Then again, positive criticism is more like motivation for me.

Don’t know the difference between positive and negative criticism?

Positive criticism would usually be something affiliated to what you’re doing. Let’s say if you were to be singing, and someone were to say, “You could use a little more energy”, or “When you reach the higher notes, tone it down”. If you were to dance, someone would say, “Extend your leg more when you kick”, or “Increase your stamina because you don’t seem like you can catch up.” These things, or any criticism which is projected with means of being helpful, should be taken into consideration, whether you like it or not. Some people see your flaws, flaws which you never knew existed. Therefore sometimes you gotta hear people out and take it in, improve yourself. By doing this you’re actually showcasing humbleness, plus they feel accomplished, so it’s a win-win situation.

Negative criticism will be full on “I HATE YOUR EXISTENCE AND EVERYTHING YOU STAND FOR PLUS THE BANDS YOU LIKE”, or “BITCH DO YOU EVEN SING,” when you’re literally so good at it your friends request you to do so. This type of criticism should not get the attention it wants. By caring and feeling bad about yourself, you’re just allowing the people who critique you to feel really good about themselves. Don’t let them win. Instead, push it away and carry on with life. As hard as it is both for you and me, there’s no choice but to do so. Bringing other people down to make yourself feel better is not the way to live life. Ever.

Now that you know the difference between the two, start accepting positive/constructive criticism and push away all the negative, bad vibes. Boom. You’re 25% done into being a humble person.

Humbleness takes you far in life, whether you realise it or not. It’s mainly because you are giving yourself room for improvement everyday, and by improving, you get better. Never say or think you’re the best at something because honestly, there’s always someone out there better than you. Basically, never think you’re a big shot and walk around pretending everyone either adores or is jealous of you. Living like that will make you go through a major reality check when you hit college.

Always always always learn. Learn from mistakes, learn from what you did wrong 5 minutes ago, learn from what you see around you. It’s hard to alter what you’ve been doing for the past year or so, but it works. Someone told me to try to stop making excuses, do what I have to do. Just to accept everything life throws at me and to be humble. I’m telling you, do it. It actually makes you feel better.

Instead of constantly thinking you’re the best at whatever you’re doing and that you can fix whatever which is going on, ask for opinions. Ask for advice and be open to anything. It’s definitely hard to do that, considering we live in a society where everything’s structured and strict, but try to do so. Everything will seem a lot more different that it used to be. Also, use them as motivation. As much as you will not like constructive criticism, you need to convert it to something else, like motivation. Try doing that for a day and I bet you’ll (in the words of our principal in everyone’s report card every year) strive harder than ever.

That is honestly all I can think of as of now, relating to humbleness. Hoped whatever I said made sense, and till the next time which is unknown as of now! Have a great weekend, there’s only 9 hours left!

Love,

Qin Rou.

An Update On Life

Hello! People who are still reading this even after I totally neglected last year’s posts. You rock big time. People who have just found this, ignore that. I am a very responsible person. Ugh, who am I kidding. But welcome to this blog (you can also call it ‘Where Qinrou Whines’).

Anyways, an update on life! I am now in Form 4, which also means Year 10 in countries who do not understand the term ‘Form’?

My first assessment happened in early April. Not good. Or maybe I’m just being a class A nerd, considering I have glasses on. Oh stereotypes.

I’m in the school Editorial Board! What fun! I got assigned to the Marketing Department, due to my amazing bargaining skills I showcased back in Singapore (joking). It’s honestly great, considering the fact that the heads of the whole board are my best friends. No favouritism ideas though. I do get scolded if I fail to do my job, but it just makes the whole experience a lot more interesting and comfortable. It isn’t as easy as I thought it would be, so hats off to everyone who has been in an editorial team.

Also! I went for the school’s Leadership Camp back in January, in a place called Kandu Eco Adventure. It was super fun, and we got to do some pretty cool things. I shall include a few pictures, just to embarass my lovely friends.

River fun, featuring Sheng Lu going down.

Friends! Iza’s fluffy looking hair!

Tall people perks, demonstrated by this activity. What are doors?

We look at food for fun.

We played numerous rounds of ‘Pepsi Cola’ like real young adults.

Group photo!

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Wasn’t a very good camera moment for all of us. Blame the underpacking of soap.

I also joined the school musical again! It was called ‘The Cecily Catastrophe’. The whole production was more of a showcase than a musical, since it mainly consisted acting and dancing, but no singing. That was a bummer. I miraculously got in for both dance and acting. See! You don’t have to be fit to dance! I’m a great example!

It did take a lot of my personal and school time, so if you’re not willing to work your life off to catch up with your studies, I suggest you work on your time management, or not join at all. But if you’re willing to go all out and have no problem balancing everything, go for it!

It was really amazing, dancing in front of a crowd after 2 years or so. Acting was pretty rewarding too, I got to faint on stage haha! I also got to work with two of my seniors, who were super active when they were still in school. To work and perform alongside them was a great experience on its own.

We started practices, and they lasted from late January to late March, three times a week. Then it slowly went to four days, and then everyday, two weeks before the actual showcase.

And now, evidence of me performing, in case you were wondering how fabulous (awful) I looked that day. I shall also insert photos of the other actors and dancers for maximum embarrassment.

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Saturday practices.

Victor!

Shannon!

People hotter than 20 times of me.

Director of the play, Aeron! Known him for 10 years now.

Michelle, the choreographer! Known her ever since I was 6 or so.

Note to self : Apply makeup from home.

Other than all these things, I have mid year exams right after my mid year holidays. Which means less adventures, more studying. Also attending my school’s CCA camp next week, and the Fire Rescue Cadet Camp in June! Plus a performance in June! My life has never been this packed. Ever.

Although my current state of life is pretty much hectic and filled to the brim, I’m actually enjoying every single moment. Whether I’m in class, outside of class, or at home, I’m having quite an interesting ride.

Of course, stress and homework and miscommunication happens but I work it all out with my family and friends, so it’s all pretty okay. I’m alright.

That’s all for now! Bookmark this WordPress somewhere so that you can read about me! And my life! Goodbye!

Love,

Qin Rou.

Singapore-d! : Part 2

Hay! Happy New Year! I wish everyone reading this a great year ahead. Also, I hope you have a great class teacher/boss for starters. Hopefully you have cool stationary. Hopefully there’s air conditioning in your workplace/classroom. Its gonna be a loooooooong year. I am not making this transition better for you, am I? I was originally going to continue on with another topic and delay the ‘Singapore-d!’ posts, but I decided not to procrastinate and get it done with. If you don’t understand what this is about, or if you missed Day 1 of my trip, you can read about it by clicking here! Moving on – Day 2! We devoted the whole of our second day in Singapore to the one, the only, Universal Studios Singapore. Such devotion, mainly because there were so many things to see, so many rides to go on, so many attractions. We went alongside our aunt and two of our cousins. Also, to get there, you have to get on Sentosa Island. And the only MRT-related transport available to get to Sentosa Island, is to go there via Vivo City, something like our One Utama. Pictures! I explored around while waiting for our express train to Sentosa Island. The train was so cramped, everyone was separated haha. I guess everyone was too pumped for the day to begin. We (after a excruciating, cramped, train ride) eventually reached our stop. Now for some cool finds that were on the street : We wanted to catch the Waterworld show, which was one of the must-sees if you come here. The next show was at 2pm, so we had time to kill since it was only 12pm. We decided to venture the Madagascar ride first, and worked our way from there till it was time.

King Julian is looking at my camera I swear

We then went to the Kingdom/Castle part of Universal Studios.

Notice the ruined ‘Muffin’ part of the signboard

A wild Hong Fei appears

It was time for the Waterworld show, and us kids went ahead and sat at the 3rd row, from the front. The adults stayed at the back, since they knew what was going to come. We got fairly wet, mostly because the people who were in charge of spraying water at you aimed at us three times. Thank you, the people who did that. After the show, we did more exploring, then had lunch. Pictures!

It was a wall, a very cool wall

A very sad lunch

Hello, mom

Lunch coupons which my uncle purchased for us when he bought the tickets

After lunch, it was about 3:30pm. We went ahead and rode the Dragon ride, watched the Shrek 4D short film, and by the time we finished, it was 4:45pm or so due to the line. We then went to ride the Jurassic Park ride, as we realized it was starting to get really cloudy. We got on that. And then, IT RAINED. AND RAINED. AND HEAVY RAIN POURED DOWN SENTOSA ISLAND FROM ITS EXISTENCE. Although we were running and running and getting ponchos which were devastatingly uncomfortable, it was really cool. Now I can tell people I experienced Universal Studios Singapore when it raining. Anyway! We went on to ride a couple more rides and finally reached the last ride – the Transformers ride. Was it amazing? Yes. Was it super cool and different and high techy? Yes. But how long did we wait? 2 hours. You’re welcome in advance. After 3 hours of lining up and eventually riding the ride, it was already 8pm (thanks a lot Transformers) and so we went ahead to eat dinner at Starbot Café, since everyone was so tired and hungry. I blame the ride.

We then explored the rest of Universal Studios. It was so beautiful at night, it had such a streets of New York feel and look to it, with lights and signboards filling the area. We also went to the various giftshops to fool around and to buy stuff, of course. Because it is totally normal to touch everything and not buy anything. Problems. After that we went back home and slept until the next morning, because Universal Studios will drain the life out of you. A good type of draining though, a happy, satisfying kind. Life tip : spend one whole day there, you can’t finish trying everything if you spend half a day there (you can thank me later). And so, that was the second day of my Singapore trip! I am surprised I even got the time to finish this, because I just started Form 4 and believe it or not, I have 5 books of homework to complete. So much for pure science students. Oh the agony. A moment of silence for our hands, who have suffered the most throughout this process. Let me know what you think in the comments, bookmark me somewhere, and see you soon with Part 3! Happy open schooling! Or for people in other places, happy continue-with-school schooling! Love, Qin Rou.

Singapore-d! : Part 1

Hay! So, if you’ve been reading, I went to Singapore on the 23rd-26th of December with my brother, my mom and Hong Fei, which turned out to be one of the highlights of my year. It’s mainly because I got to see my cousins who live there though. Okay maybe it’s because of a lot of things. Oh well. Let’s start with Day 1! We reached KLIA2 at about 5:45 in the morning or so, and I only got 2-3 hours of sleep, so I just put on a beanie and went with it. I looked horrible. Period.

Horrible.

Boarding passes!

We were flying with AirAsia, hence the following pictures :

OMNOMNOM FOOD

Morning skies

Our flight took shorter than usual, yet there was slight turbulence. And I hate turbulence. Like no. Hahaha anyways, we reached Changi Airport!

Orchids, Singapore’s national flower

We then went to Starbucks, to kill some time since the hotel only allowed us to check in at 12pm. There were so many pastries and things which Malaysia did not have.

Typical time killing

We then went to Lavender (where the hotel was) from Changi Airport by ourselves, with help from the information counter ladies and the glorious Singapore map. We managed to get around pretty well, since the MRT routes were easy (very easy) to understand.

My mom, sporting a Cookie Monster pillow

A standard MRT ticket, which you can use continuously

View of the Lavender/Kallang area from the hotel

View #2

Oh, you thought we were staying there? Me too. Turns out the bed was (obviously) too small for 4 people to sleep on, and even if we tried, we would be as packed as a can of sardines. So my brother and I went with Plan B – staying over at my cousin’s house in another area. Plot twist.

So! We took our stuff, headed over to my cousin’s house, dropped it off and went to have lunch at a nearby Pizza Hut. Didn’t take any pictures although I have to say, their Pizza Hut is as good as our Dominos, even better actually. (LET THE PIZZA WAR COMMENCE) After that my mom, Hong Fei and my Aunt Sarah left to shop around Orchard, Raffles and some other places which I didn’t take note of. For us kids, we went to the usual, typical (and we somehow went to this place in Malaysia when they came back)..……………..

THE ARCAAAAAAAADE!

We were supposed to meet up with our parents when it was 5pm at BayFront, but they were still doing their shopping. Sources have told me they stopped at every shop which had a big ‘SALE!!!!’ sign, therefore the delay. Netherless, we decided to go to Esplanade, to see the Merlion and to explore around that area. It was really fun, riding the MRTs, yet really tiring.

They kept telling me it looked like a durian, but I didn’t get it. And then,

It finally made sense.

Marina Bay Sands in the afternoon

The legit Merlion!

Sean, Jerome and my brother

After 1 1/2 hours of exploring, our parents were finally done! Our legs were giving up on us by that time though. Anyway, we went to Gardens By The Bay, which was at Marina Bay, to see plants and trees and lights and cool things. You don’t have to pay for entering, but you have to get tickets to get on the bridge.

We then went back for dinner at a restaurant nearby our cousin’s house, freshened up and went to sleep at 12am since it took us quite a while to get from Marina Bay to Ang Mo Kio. And that was Day 1 of Singapore-d! I was going to make it a big long post but I doubt it would fit. I took a lot more pictures than I expected. So that’s all for this post. Hope you like it, comment, bookmark me, and see you soon!

 Love,

Qin Rou

Day Out With Cow

Hey there! I’m still on my holidays! What joy! Also I’m leaving for Singapore on the 23rd, if you were wondering. Netherless, today’s  post is about ‘A Day Out With Cow’, the cow being me! (Refer to the About page to understand why am I a cow, if you don’t get it) I was actually there yesterday, which meant I procrastinated. I’m sorry. I do that a lot. Back to the main topic!

So, I wanted to just roughly show the world what I usually do/where I usually went, and this time, I went to The Curve! We went there with some family friends who came back. We went there at about 1pm or so, and went for lunch at Sakae Sushi, and I didn’t take any beautiful pictures, so nevermind that. Coincidentally, it was very, very happening, where I went. The wordpress gods smiled upon me.

The decorations there were spot on in my opinion. Picture time!

My brother, Qi Hong and myself

There were actually 4 other aunts, but they were all behind the lens. We were planning to go to Kidzania, but the lines were so long, longer than Pinnochio’s nose. I kid you not. Therefore we went to Borders, and there was a Starbucks there. *unleashes inner girly girl*

The peppermint mocha frappucino, t’was really good!

Told you! Anyway, we also walked to the opposite of The Curve, passing by The Street where there were restaurants and mini stalls. The mini stalls only open on weekends if I’m not wrong. When we reached e@Curve (that building we were walking to) there was a quick musical called ‘Rocking Rolling Christmas’. I basically stood and watched the whole thing because I get really attracted to these things.

Work it girl!

It was amazing! There was so much energy there, both the singers and the dancers nailed it. They are going to be performing on certain times, until Christmas ends if I’m not wrong. Go take a look!

I might have bought some things for myself. Who am I kidding, here’s what I bought.

Taylor Swift’s 1989, Deluxe version

Two highlighters from Borders and badges from the mini stalls at The Street

I promise you that’s everything I bought. That’s about it! Your day out with Cow has came to an end.

Also, for everyone who was wondering, a quick countdown :

Christmas is in 4 days
2015 is in 10 days
Students (well, Malaysian students at least) start school in 15 days

Hope I scared you. Hahahah! Before I finish the post, since I won’t be around during the actual Christmas Eve/Christmas Day, I wanna wish everyone an early Merry Christmas/Hanukkah/whatever you want to celebrate! Go give your pet a hug! Be nice to your elders!

I also found these cool Christmas related photos on WeHeartIt.

Because the kitten is adorable.

Okay, I’m really done. Leave a comment if you’d like, and thanks for reading!

Love,

Qin Rou

Realisation

Hello there! I decided to write a post about realisation. Realisation of what, you may ask? Well, about me. Realisation of the way I speak, the way I dress, the way I type and such on.

You might think, “Goodness gracious, you’re 14 and you think you have the right to say things you don’t even know? You’re still a kid.” Well, I’m an adolescent who is realising her pros and cons sooner before she makes mistakes. Period. Not literally period. You get what I mean.

I am not doing this because of the opinions of others, or because it is directed to someone else (instead I hope you take it as a non-fictional, reflection time by me), I am doing this for me. For myself to actually stick to my words, for myself to actually look back in a few years and practice what I preached. Also because I’m in a cafe now, waiting for time to pass.

Shall we start?

First and foremost, the way I dress. If you know me well enough, you would know that I dress however I want, depending on the occasion. A few months back, basically, the way I dress still didn’t really matter to me, but the people I hanged out more often with usually dressed up amazingly, and I felt the need to do so. Well, it involved shopping on clothes I believed was dressy enough to wear, so I could blend in. Also discomfort and shyness.

I mean, a lot of people try to look presentable everywhere that they go, and it’s not wrong. You wear dresses everywhere you go? Cool. You wear booty shorts and exposive clothes? Good for you. But me? I’m just going to stick to my jean jacket, beach pants and what I’m comfortable in. When it’s time to dress up, I will. When it isn’t? Don’t make me. Respect me and I’ll respect you.

Next off, we have the way I talk, my behaviour I guess. Now this my friends, is something that I am constantly working on. A work-in-progress, which means that I’m not up to my wanted standards, yet. (Notice the yet haha!) All you need to know if you don’t know, I am a really, really talkative little person. I talk both the good and the bad. At the right times and not at the right times. Too little, and yet, too much.

To be super honest, I talk back a lot. If I think you’re wrong, you’re wrong. I don’t actually care if you’re older or younger. And this is really good, because this means I stand up for my rights. But. It’s not good for people of my age and where I stand now. Do you think it’s not fun to be right? Or to succeed in a battle? Heck yes it is. But at the end of the day, no matter what, there’s respect and the term give and take.

Therefore realising this, I am actually trying my very best to use another way to speak to them. Them relating to people I have talked back to. What’s the other way, you might ask? Well, for instance, instead of yelling and rolling my eyes and being like ‘I was right okay?!’,  I try saying it in a nicer, calmer way and it works. So I’ll be doing that from now on. 

Also I try not to get mad nowadays. It’s worthless to get mad over stupid things that would only last for a day or two. If you need to feel something, make sure that particular matter is worth wasting your precious time on. Or else just shake it off because if Taylor Swift gets hate every second of her life, and still she can write a bomb ass song about shaking them problems off, you should be able to do too. I mean shaking your problems off. Not writing a song.

If you have not been around me these past few weeks, this post is to tell you that I’ve somehow made myself a better person, through a lot of thinking, and a lot of help from friends and family. I feel amazing, doing this. A lot more calmer, more positive and changed for the good.

So yeah. That’s about it. You have succesfully completed Level 1 of ‘How to Train Your Qin Rou.’ Hope you understand that this is how I get things out of my mind for good.

Thanks for reading, leave a comment, and goodbye! (I’m inserting a picture of a cute comic I found called Lemon Story which relates to my situation. Enjoy!)

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Love,

Qin Rou

The Fortunettes

Hey there! So my year end holidays started, which means no more itchy school uniforms! It means I can wake up without worrying about hair ties anymore! It also means I can’t see my friends anymore, which is a total bummer, considering the fact that my life is 60% school-related, but scratch that. I’ll rant about that one day, when I start feeling that emptiness inside me.

So recently (not that recent anymore since I have been procrastinating) I actually went to a play! This would be the second ‘out-of-school and I don’t know anyone who was acting’ play I’ve been to. It was called ‘The Fortunettes”, and it was put up by the KDU Secondary School. The play was held at the KDU Primary School Hall, if I’m not wrong!

I found out about the play from Zoey, who was involved in the play as one of the main characters. She posted a lot about it on her social media, and since my Aunt June and I were both interested, we decided to check it out. Zoey also helped us with the tickets, so we didn’t need to do much. We just had to collect the tickets from her and wait for the hall doors to open, which took awhile because we got there a tad early.

Some pictures from the event!

The banners outside the hall!

I honestly thought it was an amazing play. From the costumes to the backdrop, to the amazing choreography, I enjoyed every single bit of it. The main theme of the play was the 60s, and since it was all about being bright and colourful, both the young and elder audiences could enjoy it equally. They also gave out booklets, which contained behind the scene notes such as the costume designs, inspirations for the backdrops, and detailed descriptions of each and every scene, although I didn’t read them till I got home (didn’t want any spoilers!).

I really do applaud all the people who were involved since the show was a huge success! I’ve been part of a musical play before, and although my part was a minor one, we felt that stress. I hope I get to go for more plays, or more events which I’ve never been to before, sonce it’s going to be 6 weeks (or 4 weeks, by now) of getting a taste of freedom. Also I’m going to Singapore for Christmas! Or so I’ve been told.

That’s all for this post, leave a comment if you’d like, and happy holidays! Make it count!

Love,

Qin Rou

Street Artventures

Hello there, people of Earth! Today I will be writing about something more convincing, to assure you I have a humorous side, and that I’m not just deep all the time (am I humorous though, more like happy for no reason, and for any reason at all) So, I’m going to write about my trip to the ‘Seksyen 7 Street of Art‘, which was organized by the Arts and Craft Club of my school. I wasn’t actually part of the club, neither were my friends (confession time) but it did not seem to matter, considering the fact that 60% of the people who went weren’t part of the club haha! Less talking from me, let the pictures speak from themselves!

 

  Another alleyway featuring my photogenic Malay Language teacher

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There was also interactive pieces, and fear not, as my (amazing yet cool) friends have taken a large amount of photos on how to“interact” with them. There might be really ridiculous faces, heads up.

   One with Nikita and Abigail (you will be hearing so for starters here are two of them, say hi!)

As you can see, my teacher is the master of the ‘I am currently thinking about life’ look

  Long story short, there was a lot of Snapchat action. And selfies.

  One for the memories with everyone! (Notice the window and the people peeking out)

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It was so cool to see so many things being expressed through art, whether it was about global warming or a video game. To be honest, it’s great to have a place or a project where artists can actually do what they do best, without being criticized or judged, or being called names. But yes, this was the amazing yet tiring day I had today. If you don’t live in Malaysia, I suggest you take the next flight here and see these super cool streets and be amazed, because I surely was. Also, I would like to thank my friends Zainab and Syifa for taking these superb photos, using iPhones which I could never afford. (It is also because my phone is not with me right now haha!) Leave a comment about what you think of these type of posts, and till the next time I write, goodbye!

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Love,

Qin Rou